katie134

I’m new to this website. so this is my first time posting a blog on here. i’m not very good at all of this stuff. i’m trying really hard to think about why i need to lose the weight but for me if there is food around and i’m just sitting at home bored (which is most of the time) then i will find something and eat it. i hate that but thats how i’ve always been. i eat emotionally and i eat when i’m bored. usually its something sweet and if its not sweet then its something i’m going to eat a lot of it. My husband works 4 days a week but they are 10 hour days we only have one car at the moment so i sit at home with the kids one of them is in school. i’m able to walk around the neighborhood but when its raining i cant because i cant take my seven month old out in the rain like that. what sucks really bad is that lately its been either really cold out or raining here. so i’ve been stuck. i’ve really wanted to go out and walk but i cant. i try to do other things inside but sometimes i just feel stupid doing it lol. My husband says hes happy with the way i am but i’m not. I hate the way my body looks i cant stand to look at myself in the mirror. sometimes i just dont know what to do.  I dont see how he can like the way i look and i dont see what he sees in me. he gets so mad at me when i call myself fat but i cant help it thats how i feel i truly just want it to go away but i know its not that easy. i have to work for it and its not just going to happen over night.